I’ve been sharing about my friend Jill’s journey of adoption. It hurts my heart to tell this part of the story. As I sit here and remember, a pit forms in my stomach and I wish the ending could be written a different way.
After almost a year of pouring out their hearts and loving on these sweet babies, Jill and Chris found out they would not be able to adopt the children. Here’s my friend Jill’s words when they found out.
It is with a heavy heart that I write today. Heavy is not really the word to describe my heart, but breaking . . . We did not receive a favorable decision from the judge today. The second blow was that at the court today, we received the news that the FSB (like the FBI) has determined that Chris is a dangerous person and will not be allowed to return to Russia. More than likely this means that we will not return to Russia at the end of Chris’s visa.
We have been working on adopting children for 4 years. I have no idea why this is happening, BUT we do know that God is in control and that he has a plan for our lives. We know that he has a plan for Andrew and Natasha’s lives as well.
This is my prayer and the song in my heart right now:
Jesus lover of my soul, Jesus I will never let you go. You have taken me from the mirey clay and set my feet upon the rock and now I know. I love you, I need you, though my world may fall, I’ll never let you go. My saviour, my closest friend, I will worship you until the very end.
He is the lover of my soul. I am so thankful for his love for me and my family.
Right now I’m praying for Jill because I know that allowing me to share this story has opened that wound once again. This is loss that never leaves you.
I’ll share just a little bit more in the next post.