Sometimes the ugly, dark, difficult, and yucky seem to press in on me like a ton of bricks crippling me. Often my mind cannot even go there. I do everything in my power to practice avoidance. But, it still lurks in the recesses of my mind. Tragedy. Sickness. Death. Loneliness. Betrayal. Misunderstanding. Depression. Shattered dreams. Disappointment.
You may be reading this and thinking–wow, someone needs Prozac or Valium. Hang tight with me for just a minute. This blog is my attempt to share the glimpses of glory that I see, but I have also committed to be real.
Well, here’s the deal. We spend so much of our time hiding what’s going on in our hearts. Our culture seems to celebrate and at times even demand perfection. So, we go about our days pretending. We put a smile on our face. We go to work. We go to school, We pursue our hobbies. We hang out with friends. We seem good. Meanwhile on the inside we are falling apart. Our heart is a vast wasteland. We have no hope. There is a verse in Psalms that says “Hope deferred makes the heart sick…”
Why do we pretend? Seriously, we need to stop it. Stop pretending. Stop hiding. Stop avoiding. Stop entertaining ourselves to death to try to mask the hurt and pain inside.
Here’s the truth. You know how sometimes you feel like crap on the inside. Guess what, the person you sit next to at work feels that way. The person you see at the grocery store feels that way. The person that lives next door to you feels that way. The youngsters that reside in your home feel that way. The person who shares your bed feels that way. From time to time we all feel like things are hopeless and that we are being pummeled by our circumstances.
So, what do we do when the darkness seems be waging war in our soul. I don’t know about you, but when I walk into a pitch black room, I turn on the light. We need to do the same thing in our souls. We need open the shutters of our heart. We need to let in the Light because the light dispels the dark. We need to open our hearts wide to one another and acknowledge our struggles. We need to stop hiding.
Personally, the only way I can get through the difficult moments in life is to put my hope in Jesus. He shines His light into my heart. And, often He uses someone with skin on to speak truth to me, to bind up my broken heart, to give me a hug or even sometimes a swift kick in the butt. In complete transparency I often struggle for quite a while and often difficult circumstances don’t go away. However, time after time after time, my hopeless heart has been filled with HOPE as His Light permeates the darkness in the midst of difficult circumstances!!
So, today if you are feeling effects of the yuckiness of life, I urge open up and talk to someone. Maybe someone around you is also feeling the effects of the yuckiness of life. Together you can shed a little light on the yuckiness and let His light fill you.
We need one another!! We need Jesus!!!
Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light. Micah 7:8
The people living in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of the shadow of death a light has dawned. Matthew 4:16
In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:16
Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD. Psalm 31:24
Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God Psalm 42:5